Sometimes I get myself into difficult situations either because I never think it through, because I was half-asleep, because people are just not what you expect them to be, or because of bad timing it’s all of the above. Sometimes it’s things I do rashly because I feel put in the spotlight, or maybe it’s because at the time it felt right or harmless. But I guess, nothing you can do as standard will yield standard results all the time.

I’ve been getting myself into a lot of peculiar situations recently and as much as most of it sucks (there are redeeming parts, thankfully), I guess I’m just going to have to live with it. I guess this is kinda like what happened about 4 years ago when I switched from one college to another college and then finally to the last college I got my diploma from. It was a very confusing time for me, and I guess I made a lot of rash decisions that I later on somewhat regretted, and somewhat not because at the end, things turned out somewhat alright. But as life to most people are, surprises are abound waiting to jump you when you least expect it.

Anyhoo, I actually went on and on about being honest and stuff, but felt it was a load of bull and deleted it all. Have lost the passion to blog, for now anyways.

I still think it’s because of the ugly wordpress template. Ptui!

Kinda feel a bit turned off by the design of this blog, and even more turned off by the fact that the other template choices aren’t that appealing either. I still haven’t bothered taking the time to search up on why WordPress restricts the theme choices where as other blogging sites like Blogger allow you to freely edit your layouts and templates.

Yes, blogs are meant to be about the content and not the design of the page, but it’s MY blog and I would like it to look decent enough that I myself would want to view it. The colours are a little dull, the layout feels a little narrow and cramp, and I guess it overall feels very unappealing making my long-winded stories all the more long-winded.

K, I’m done blaming WordPress for my shortcomings as a great writer. There you go.

Guess I’m just posting something for the sake of not having a 2-week hiatus on my dear old blog. Just goes to show how little I have going on for me in a fortnight, doesn’t it?

Am still as jobless as ever, although I hope things will change for the better in the coming work week, but I guess I’m not going to get my hopes up unnecessarily to avoid devastating disappointment. Keep things nice and steady as she goes, no highs, no lows.

Am pretty thankful that all my US TV shows are back on the air, although it’s not a daily occurrence thing but I guess those are the days where I should be really focusing on getting a job. Have taken on three new shows which is the musical Glee (which seems a bit blah, although I did enjoy the most recent episode), yet another vampire-based series The Vampire Diaries (it’s like a TV Twilight/NewMoon/etc, teen-drama watchable), and something fairly recent called FlashForward which is a sci-fi show about figuring out why people all over the world blacked out for over 2 minutes and all of them had their consciousness flashforwarded 6 months before waking up again to the disasters from their blackouts (ie rogue cars, planes, helicopters, etc). Still only 2 episodes in, but I think it’s getting somewhere. It’s set to fill in the shoes of Lost which is ending next year, and I really do hope it ends with a good big bang.

Think it’s a bit bad that I can talk so much about television. Although when you think about it, why is watching too much TV such a bad thing? Yes, there are some television shows which are utter crap, ie some reality tv shows. But there are also shows which inspire, which makes you think, which portrays stereotypes and then defies them. It brings to life what one could only imagine into something you can see and hear for your own self. Yes, books may be more stimulating because you have to mentally visualise things, but who’s to say that television doesn’t cause any mental stimulation as well? We’re after all processing what’s happening aren’t we? And with some of the shows on air these days, it keeps you guessing what’s going to happen, and you resort to trying to predict what’s going to happen next by figuring out what has happen, and what are the possible moves. It’s like reading a book AND playing chess at the same time! Cool right?

The problem with television is that because it’s a new medium relative to the printed word, it tends to draw a lot more flak because it hasn’t been around long enough for people to assign to it this “artistic value” which makes something that may be utter rubbish become of importance and acceptable, like how nude photographs can cause more people to be offended as opposed to the nude paintings or sculptures which adorn the walls of museums and galleries. We accept it because it has been around longer. Racism has slowly faded in time because different races have been mixing with one another for a very very long time as well. Television is relatively still an infant compared to things like this, so perhaps one day it will get the recognition and respect it deserves.

So there you have it, my pointless late night post in defense for my watching so many television shows. With such capable skills to twist and turn something negative into something positive, I wonder why no company has snatched me up yet?

Probably cos I’m too busy watching shows to bother trying harder at getting a job, that’s why.

I watched The Ugly Truth yesterday and whilst it’s your run-of-the-mill romantic comedy with a still watchable journey towards a predictable happy ending, I did take something from it.

More often than not I have this urge to check plans for phones or internet, sometimes even other things like toll rates, membership discount cards, promotions and offers etc that are applicable to me. I don’t know if it’s an “auntie” thing or a “cheapskate” thing or what, but I always have this unexplainable need to figure out what the best offer/deal/rates are. And the worse thing is, once I figure these things out, I sometimes have this strong urge to get the people who are on the less-economical rateplans to switch to the more economically sensible ones.

Is that one of the traits of a control freak? Although I’m not as eccentric as Katherine Heigl’s character who fusses over every single detail and even does background checks on people she dates, the fact that I have this unnerving need to “advise” people to go for the better deal makes me wonder what exactly this trait I have is all about, let alone what it says about me. On the plus side, people can easily turn to me when they want to know which to choose. It’s just another one of those random things I seem to know about.

The cinema where I went to watch that movie had a booth promoting DiGi’s new Unlimited Music thing, which led me to Maxis’s Music Unlimited (which isn’t the unlimited you think it is), following which led me to checking out the call plans Hotlink offers. It’s weird, and it’s utterly irrelevant since I’m not even using prepaid, but there I was switching between the various plans trying to figure out the differences in the offers and identifying any catches or strings. And now, I have this strong urge to ask a few people I know using Hotlink what plan they are on, and recommending them to switch to the economical one since they are eligible for it.

Yep, it’s the Hotlink youthclub. And no, I’m not being paid to promote them, although the income would be much welcomed. The rates are so unbelievably cheap compared to the other 2 possible plans, and it’s sort of killing me on the inside not knowing whether my friends are on that plan or not since they are eligible to join. I just can’t live with myself knowing that people are going on using expensive plans and unnecessarily paying more for the same quality of service.

I don’t know what’s wrong with me. Actually, I don’t even know if this is a bad thing or not. Afterall, I’m not being employed by these people to solicit my friends of which I’m quite sure many would find annoying and to some a little bit “gross”, so I kinda wonder if people appreciate my free service to help them save money or am I just being a little too much of a control freak that I need to have everything and everyone do as I say the way that I want it to be.

Hmmm…

Would life be easier and more managable if people weren’t so afraid of saying whatever they’re thinking or feeling without having to worry about the repercussions?

Is that being careless, mindless, and thoughtless? Or is that being brave and taking risks?

If everyone felt this way, then maybe nobody would be offended since it’s how everyone behaves anyway.

No wonder I can’t wait for the movie “The Invention of Lying” to come out. I’m kinda curious to see how it plays out.

Goodnight world. I’ll see u again in the morning.